Starting today and going through until next Monday, I’ll not be posting anything on here. I’ve been so focused on writing my novel that I haven’t done anything else. That hyperfocus is starting to fade, so I’m going to take this time to work on myself and make some exceptionally good content. Mostly my house is a mess, I haven’t read a book in almost two weeks, and I’m burning myself out. My other platforms should still be updating, so I’m not gone completely, I just want to get ahead on my mood.
Some updates since we’re here: I enjoy writing poetry, and since it’s unfortunately a writing style I have an extreme amount of content for, I may try and publish a book of two of that before my novel is finished. Especially over the last month, I’ve made about fifty new poems. I have to go through, edit, and group them up. After that, I can start looking to publish them with the help of my amazing roommate, who happens to be an artist.
I’ve rewritten my novel’s first and second drafts now, so I can start looking at reading it over, hating it, doing it again, and then letting someone else maybe read it once. In other words, I should actually finish novel one soon here. Should being the key word of that sentence, because my brain is a dick. I post more updates on the progress on my Twitter. I have high hopes though, I’ve been putting in a lot of work and am so far, pretty proud.
I’m going to start more home reno’s soon! Which means more posts of me bitching about that! (That’s meant to be funny…) As well as maybe more posts looking to moving out possibly coming? We’ll see, I’d like to do that still, but I’ve got to fix this place up still quite a bit.
That’s all I have for updates, and all I have for today. I’ll be back for the 17th! Thanks for stopping by, and if you want to help support me, Patreon and PayPal are still the best ways financially. I love and appreciate you all! Be safe out there!
Wow! Guys, I’ve been doing this for a year now! How crazy is that?! It’s hard to believe that I started this as a hobby a year ago only to now use it for both my sanity, and to tell my stories. I’m excited about this!
I’ve gone to England on this blog, I’ve hiked random trails around the Okanagan, and I’ve made friends of mine do new things just so I’m not alone on here. The adventures I get to experience, man I love what I do.
Without all of the people who tune in and read this every chance they have, I really would be nowhere. I’m baffled and grateful. And to the friends who read my work, and the friends I’ve made, thanks for being there for me! I know I say it a lot, but I really do love all of you.
I’ve been going through quite a bit lately with understanding trauma and growing for what feels like the first real time as a person. There’s a category of posts tagged under mental health here, and I’m appreciative that I can talk about those things. Being able to put what I’m feeling into words helps me understand what’s going on, and gives me the chance to work on it in a healthy manner.
I love what I do, and I can see myself doing this for at least another year. This is, was? the best decision and hobby I ever threw myself at. Writing is just, I don’t think I have the words, it’s everything I really needed to control my heart and mind. I feel at peace behind this keyboard. And being able to take pictures of the world around me to show some adventures I get to take, this blog has really become my baby in a way. Many of you know more of what I do in a week than my family does. It’s weird how hobbies can change a person isn’t it?
As a thanks to helping me grow, and as a challenge to myself because I should have posted this forever ago, I’ve decided to post the opening paragraph to that book I still haven’t finished. That’ll be on the bottom of this page, and I am freaking out a bit over doing it, but now that I’ve said it I kind of have to. No one has read that yet, and I mean that.
Before I go for today, I figured some shameless plugs for myself are in order. Because I have things like Patreon, Instagram, Twitter, and with this being what I want to do as a career, I would love it if you checked them out. You all are amazing, and I cannot thank you enough. Have an amazing day and stay safe out there! — Deryn
Today has been interesting. I’ve never been surrounded by so many bland people. What is the point of drinking until you pass out? I guess that’s what I get for having hobbies and no real friends. I’d much rather be at home reading, or playing cards. Young adults with raging hormones are battling everywhere for attention and alcohol. Man, I’m fucking tired. And the music; oh my God this music is ass.
“Hey babe,” sparks up from behind me.
“Oh hey,” crap, what a lackluster response.
“You alright?” Tones of kindness and love bring joy to my heart. How sweet, the poor guy is worried about me.
“Yeah cutie, I’m fine. I don’t know, I guess I’m just tired.”
“Okay, well if you need me at all, I’m going to be over by the food tent.” His heads up of where he’s going is wholesome.
Too bad this world is boring. Our reality is just a bunch of people trying to make their way in a world that doesn’t want them. If only my world had something worthwhile going on. Magic, airships, literally anything at this point would make life worth my damn time: all I want is a hint of excitement. Well, at least I have food I guess.
This food tent is mediocre: breakfast from a cheap fast food joint and an insult of an attempt at handmade food line the tables. Why serve breakfast with alcohol? Doesn’t dinner, or even greasy American food pair better? It doesn’t help that rain started pouring down. Today is just another waste of my time.
“Babe! Look at what I found!” The only thing in this world I really care about is him, isn’t that strange? “It’s your favourite!”
Sorry if I made anyone worry. I know it’s not my job to apologize to people but I really do appreciate all of you and want you to know I’m okay. I woke up yesterday having a rough day, as in it was one of those days where I wore black tights and a sweater even though it was twenty-five degrees outside.
I know I talk about my memory problems a lot, but it’s fascinating to me really. The reason I was feeling like such garbage yesterday was because I’ve been trying to remember everything that my brain buried. I’m doing it slowly just in case my brain freaks out and tries to protect itself, and starting with my high schools years was my intention. Yesterday my brain remembered something rather sad and traumatizing which threw me into a depressive state.
Last time I was that sad, in recent memory anyway, I was almost danger to myself. To tackle this before it got too bad, I messaged a friend of mine just asking if I could hang out so I wasn’t alone. I’m so blessed to have friends around me who care because he replied with “want me to pick you up”. No need to explain or be worried, he just wanted to make sure I was okay and I really appreciate that.
Normally I’d have a back up post for when I’m having an “off” day like that, but as you can tell, I was unprepared. Nonetheless, thank you so much for coming by and saying hello! You’re awesome and I hope you have a good day!
I went back and was looking at old blog posts I made just to see what I was talking about, and to see how my opinions have changed. My oldest post being me ranting about customer service work.
Can I Rant? Remember this post? Probably not as it was the second post I ever did, but the oldest you can find anymore. The summary on that is I’m only human so be nice to me. My overall opinion hasn’t really changed, mostly because people still suck. But that got me thinking about my current situation.
I’ve been blogging full time and only working a traditional job one day a week for awhile now. And with that, I’m happier than I ever was working a 9 – 5. I’m intrigued to see if this blog can properly support me within the year, cause that would be super cool.
My favourite part about this is though, I feel like I can do this for a long time. This blog is something I can feel myself getting invested in, and I’m willing to work for it. That’s more than I could ever say for working the old jobs I had. I’m thrilled by the idea that I can do what I want to do and people support me. This is what success feels like to me.
I’m thankful for the foundations I’ve built, and for the people around me, as well as my readers. I want to keep doing this, I love what I do and am so excited for the future. With that, I want to say that I’m updating my Patreon to have different subscription options, and that I’ve also made Multimedia Mondays a permanent addition to my blogging days. So keep an eye out for those!
But anyway, that’s all I’ve got for today. Thanks for stopping by! — Deryn
I browse Pinterest way too often, and am currently trying to link my blog to it all pretty and such. But when I’m browsing, I get recommended blog titles all the time. Some of them are fun, others just baffle me. I know these are designed to draw traffic, but some of them are just, stereotypical in a sense. Now I’m not here to say people who follow these are wrong, I just don’t use them myself unless I’m really desperate and have crazy writers block. I want to share a few of them with you today.
So today is the 9th right? The first post I find has over one hundred different blog title ideas. The ninth option is “What’s Better __ or __ ?”. Posts like these are fun to write, but feel more like a magazine title than a blog title. Maybe once I learn something about makeup products, I’ll try out titles like that one for good comparisons. Otherwise I’d do something such as ice cream brands. I also get a preppy teenage vibe from it. Unique titles don’t sit SEO vibes, so I understand why people pick the titles they do.
Side note, these posts are all over Pinterest, and they constantly get reuploaded without credit to the original author. Because of this, I won’t be tagging them.
Different post this time. Now we only have fifty two options. Lets double up and check out number eighteen. “The 10 Minute Fix to Doing ____” is this option. Do I like this one? To be honest this one isn’t as bad as some I’ve found. I could see myself writing something for this. “Ten Minutes to Fix Your Attitude” would be a fun twist on that kind of post. Although I’m not the person who would write that. I’ve got my own attitude I’ve got to work on. I say that, it’s mostly my ego. Barely fit through a door sometimes!
Man, some of these are real gems. Like number twenty seven on this other post, “What Makes me Feel Better, Always”. That’s a tad ominous isn’t it? To answer this question, music always brings up my mood. But a lot of title ideas are like this! The writing prompts are much less weird I find than the blog title recommendations. I’ve gathered a healthy amount of pins to browse through if you’re feeling bored. Want to see that mess? Sure you do! Be careful though, I get lost scrolling through that app.
But yeah, that’s all I wanted to bring up today. I’m currently waiting on my lunch to be delivered and then I’m going to get back to work. Thanks for stopping by today! I appreciate it! It’s because of you guys I get to do this! Anyway, later!