Alone

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Quarantine and a wack sleep schedule have dismissed the idea that I was ever going to be in my house alone for more than two hours. Now that both roommates are working, I’m all alone in my place, besides the animals of course, and it’s super weird. I’m not used to being left to my own devices for too long. I mean, on one hand, I can do whatever I want all morning right? 

My morning starts with being bullied out of bed by two hungry, and rather large cats. I say that, I bully myself because I love them too much and don’t want anything bad to happen to them. And Midna is a good girl too who has THE SMALLEST BLADDER EVER! Dogs…

What a cute puppy!

Now on with the rest of my day. Jordan is home first at 3:30ish. By this time it’s about 8:30 or 9:00 in the morning and I’m freaking out mildly. I have too much time alone and don’t know what to do. I’m trying to get into a routine with cleaning right away in the morning. If I can burn all of my “AHH!!!” energy right away, I’ll have been somewhat productive, right? Dishes are always somehow dirty?? Literally I don’t even understand how I own so many dishes that cannot be kept clean??? And I just did so much laundry recently I’m scared of my next water bill.

Lunch time rolls around and I have nothing left I need to do. By now my brain is trying to drive me insane. To deal with this, I either start gaming, deep cleaning a room, or attempt to write some more. I never stick to it though as YouTube usually takes my attention. Instant entertainment is dangerous really. That or I can’t stay home anymore and I just got for a walk.

I found him walking around the other day

Realization kicks in that I’ve spent at least a few hours doing literally nothing and that I’m hungry. Jordan should be home soon, so I’ll essentially make him an early dinner and myself a late lunch. That works! My famous chicken and hash browns! That’s a joke. It’s pretty good, but I am anything but a chef. Comfort food is the best.

With one roommate home, that means only a few hours until the other one is back too. Overall I’ve been alone for about seven hours. I’ve been alone longer at work, but for some bizarre reason, this sucks so much for me. I say that, but I have abandonment issues. But yeah, I spent a bit of time alone, and I hate it.

He got whipped cream on his whisker!

That’s all I’ve got for today though. Thanks for stopping by today, you’re amazing! Stay safe out there! I’ll talk soon!
— Deryn

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In Case of Emergency

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And by emergency I mean corona virus, or Covid-19. If I have to lock myself away for an extended period of time I’m going to go nuts. Who wouldn’t though..? So I’ve made myself a checklist of things I can or honestly should do. If I don’t make a list, I will forget and then I will stay bored. I will probably still have to dispatch at the very least as we have government accounts for moving people around. But then I’ll have five more days off in a week…

I bought a Nintendo Switch! The special Animal Crossing one finally came in and holy frick it is so cute! The game itself doesn’t come out until the 20th, but I have Zelda and Rune Factory to keep me busy. And if you haven’t bought this unit yet, honestly I recommend it! There’s something about dissociating for like four hours while you farm turnips and befriend villagers that just makes everything better. Plus like, ANIMAL CROSSING! I’ve been hyped up for this game since it was announced. Casual games are my weakness.

LOOK AT HOW PRETTY IT IS <3

Cleaning… Because I have to do it. I’ve got like two weeks until my new roommate moves in and I have to redo the floor in her room still… And paint the one wall, and put in some shelves in the closet.. It’s all around just a mess. Tomorrow she’s starting to bring some furniture in and I have to be ready. Honestly I need to take some time off but I can’t. I overwork myself. (I mean, I would have time off if we went quarantine mode but what ever.)

Rebuilding my blog for the thousandth time, because I can right? There’s something about adding new functions and sub menus and such that just makes me feel super cool. Although I’d have to catch some tutorials on what to do since I don’t code.

Yeah I know I should write more. I promise I add some words to my book once in awhile. But with a couple weeks of not leaving the house, I may have to see if I can pull an all nighter like that one night in England where I was up all night just typing. I’d probably enjoy it more if I had a set spot where I could just sink into the pages. I’m going to have a devoted study one day in my future house.

A local Starbucks. This was weird to see to be honest

Workout progress is in picture too honestly. Like, that long on lock down, I could make some real gains. In two weeks I could lift my own ego! That’s not funny and I know it... Imagine the legs a person could have after just two weeks, or lack there of depending. Plus most places don’t deliver food to my house, so I’d have to actually eat healthy.

Man, I should put myself of isolation and just watch what I do. I feel like I could be extra productive and finally get some stuff done! But at the same time, this pandemic is a real problem. I’m not worried about myself because I know a flu won’t kill me. There are a few people in my life however that a flu, especially a bad one, could realistically kill them. Please, for the sake of the people around you, be careful and don’t forget to care about others too.
Stay safe, and thanks for reading this today <3
— Deryn

New Adult Skills

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Holy snap I learned how to budget, and it was about time too! I sat down with a friend and Google Sheets (which is Microsoft Excel but by Google and free) and some Starbucks. We put together what I make versus what I spend and laid it all out. Being able to see what I’m doing and that I really shouldn’t be buying as much random crap as I do opened my eyes.

Everything is laid out in colourful ways and bold letters and it’s just amazing. I can clearly tell that I should pick up and extra shift or two this month in order to buy this one extra present for my boyfriend without being tight on money. But the best thing, is I can see how bad my Starbucks problem actually is, and for this month, so far I’m just over $5. That isn’t bad at all!

The way it’s all set up, I can see how long it will take to pay of debts, build a real savings account and even get my car back on the road. Things that were overwhelming and bringing me down are now being turned into bite sized problems I can destroy in real time! I feel so accomplished with this. Plus, it’s a skill that not enough people have, so I feel special in a sense too.

If you’re a visual person like myself, I honestly recommend taking an hour out of your day and really making a real budget for yourself. Finding where the money is going can help you manage it better, but also make the conscience decision to eat better by not spending as much out, or not buying that lipstick because you don’t really need it. Although with me it’s Magic the Gathering cards and not make-up, but that’s not the point. Watch out for the little things, like Netflix and Disney+, it can bite you in the rear down the road.

I wish I discovered this sooner, I honestly do. My eyes are open to the idea of actually being able to buy a house one day, or even a Doubling Season. – This Thing – And it’s taken a huge amount of stress off my shoulders: being able to see everything as reasonable goals is actually amazing.

But That’s Not All!
Managing stress! That’s another huge thing I’ve been learning to do! The past couple weeks have been a lot for me, I’ve been struggling to eat, sleep, and even been struggling at work. Sitting down and tackling it with friends and loved ones has really helped show me that every stressful situation can be broken down into bite sized pieces, making it manageable again.

Overall, I feel lighter, and happyish again. I’m able to talk about how I’m feeling and I can say that I wasn’t okay. My new skills are going to be a huge help come 2020 and I feel ready for anything life throws at me. Thanks for stopping by today!
And thanks for reading!
— Deryn