Looking Back a Year


So I wasn’t sure what to write about, which has been happening a lot actually. With that, I looked back at what I was talking about a year ago. Working with just one post, I would have nothing really to talk about besides just recapping what I said then. With that in mind, I grabbed the three posts around exactly one year ago today. I wanted to buy a camera, was in the middle of a depression rut, and missing some old zombie novels I read in High School. Let’s dissect me from a year ago, shall we?

My lovely ghost!

Starting with the camera I still love, a Canon Rebel SL3. I don’t know what it is, but this little camera is just so cute! I love it and want one so bad still. The quality on my pictures overall has improved drastically in the past year, I still really like the idea of having a real camera. I’ve got a friend who has a really nice camera and ends up with some of the most amazing pictures. Knowing myself though, I’d do it for a couple weeks and just quit bringing it around. Woo, ADHD…

My mental health has improved quite a lot considering over the last year. My memory therapist and I aren’t working together anymore. Not for any negative reasons, we’re just out of sessions is all. Apparently I paid her for a whole year just before August was over? And I forgot? And thought it was free because I never got a bill? That was a fun conversation we got to have, but that’s why I hired her. Well, more like why she is the professional. (I made myself laugh having to explain that.) There really isn’t much else we can work on without getting another therapist, and I don’t have the money anymore so I probably won’t do that for awhile.

Those old zombie books, with an updated link to purchase them yourself, were a huge piece of my grade eleven year. I would one hundred percent reread them for a Multimedia Monday post. at least the first two. The third was written differently and I wasn’t its biggest fan. I have a very vivid memory of my English teacher getting mad at me for getting too into the book and almost screaming when a character almost died. Out of all the novels I fell in love with, that set is one I don’t currently own though. There’s another series I have to find that I read in Elementary School that I have memories of. I have no idea what it’s called however and don’t know how I’d even find it. Is that a future blog post? Frick yeah it will be, probably.

What a beautiful sunset

But yeah, that’s an update! This was a lot of fun to go back and look into. However, that’s all I have for today. Thanks for stopping by, and I hope you have an awesome day! Be safe out there!
— Deryn

Fresh Air


Life has recently been flipped upside down for me. My boyfriend and I split, work went south and my depression came sliding into my DM’s like the asshole it is. So I decided I needed to redo myself. Not in a bad way! But things such as redoing my room, and my hair!

This process has been going on for a bit now, so I’ll start with my bedroom! I read this thing once, that if the person your seeing has their bed in the middle of their room, they have their life together. Mine was there, and I moved it, against a window. Cause of this, my room is oddly large. I’ve never seen it so empty and it’s weird.

Photo Credits

I washed all my bedding and got some stuffed animals for my bed, as well as a little rug to try and help fill the floor space. A healthy bookshelf and opening my curtains makes my bedroom look alive. Now all I need is some wall art and I’ll be set!

I’ve always wanted to try being blonde. Something about your own natural hair, the complete opposite is just magnetizing. My lovely roommate cut and coloured my hair over a whole afternoon. I’m sure somewhere on my Instagram I’ve got a selfie to show it off. If not I’ll make sure to flood it.

Other than that, hobbies are what I’m working on. I’m reading more, walking and biking around, and just trying to enjoy life as best I can. I also downloaded TikTok, so when I’m feeling lazy or in an episode, I’m sometimes learning things. It’s crazy how reading and biking for about an hour a day can really change a person!

Photo Credits

Start every morning with a song, then bike to the closest coffee shop to help wake up is an interesting addition to my morning routine I never thought I’d have. I definitely feel better, although I have my ups and downs just like anyone else. But at the end of the day I really feel like I’m doing well.

The start to this adventure has been a blessing really. And being able to talk about it is uplifting. Thanks for reading today!
— Deryn

I’m a Real Gamer


A ways back now I did a gaming update because I picked Bloodborne back up. You can find my attempt at a terrifying explanation tagged bellow. But since then I’ve fallen off the band wagon a bit besides two games; Animal Crossing and Rune Factory. Without a proper desktop, I really am limited to maybe three games to play. Bloodborne being difficult and me being directionally impaired, decided casual games are a better idea.

Bloodborne Shenanigans
My Switch I Bought

Casual games are such an odd thing. I find myself being consumed either catching bugs or planting crops that literal hours are lost to the in-game clocks. One task after another and the sun has started setting through my window. And since I’m sitting on my couch, my roommate and Midna sit with me, just letting time fly by. It’s just so easy to get lost in games like that.

In my free time, when we’re not adventuring and when I forget to do renovations, playing these games is what’s taking up my time. I’m actually having to put in reminders on my phone to blog because of these damn games. Please tell me I’m not the only one... I’m thinking I might leave gaming to like, Sunday’s for the turnip buying in Animal Crossing this week so I can actually finish the closet mostly and clean my house.

I have to apply another layer of drywall mud, sand and paint still, plus the baseboards need to be installed! But, farming is just so soothing to the brain.
I just barely have passed the one hundred thousand step goal for the month so I should keep going, right? Or I could gather fossils up and see if my museum wants any of them.
I can’t even bring myself to swap the HDMI in my TV so I can play my PS4 again. All I seem to want to do is buy and sell random crap in different Nintendo games. I’m hoping that if I buy a computer soon, I can get off my damn couch for a day.
I’m not that upset I’ve been wasting all of this time though, I mean, if I’m enjoying what I’m doing, it can’t be that much of a waste, can it?

Today I’m not going to pick up my Switch. I’m going to do some much dang laundry, and I’m going to photograph some more renovations! I can do this! I need a vacuum too. *

*Famous last words

When I get my computer rig built, I may even consider starting up a Twitch account just because. I’ve played videogames my whole life and that’s probably why I can’t kick this habit. Anyway, that’s all I’ve got today. I should really do some laundry…
Thanks for stopping by today! Stay safe, lots of love!
— Deryn

More Tuesday Tips!


Guess who caught a cold! I was sick over the weekend and let me tell you, I was literally useless for most of it, which sucks complete and utter ass. So for today, I wanted to compile all of my “get well soon” tricks. I spend a lot and I mean a lot of time on the internet, but sometimes “Dr. Google” just isn’t the way to go, ya know?

Do You Drink Tea?
Cause I do! All the damn time! And tea is a gift from the heavens let me tell you. Even if you’re not drinking it to “get better quick”, it’s like, 99.9% water. Which means you’re staying hydrated! And that’s exciting! Can you tell I had some cough medicine?
There are particular teas that are going to help more than others for sure, however I suck and hate them all. So I have been drinking earl grey and just adding stuff to it. Cinnamon makes me feel better so that’s usually my go to, although mint teas work wonders.

Own A Tub?
Holy snap, taking a bath! Now if you’re like me, sitting in the tub is boring. That just means we need to spice it up, right? I am a sucker for candles and bubbles. So naturally I light way too many candles and throw a bath bomb or some bubble bath in. Sitting and relaxing helps your body relax, which helps you get better just that little bit faster. You don’t really notice how being sick makes your whole body hurt and feel exhausted. The candles make amazing mood lighting which isn’t overwhelming to your eyes, and since you probably can’t smell, the insane amount of candles won’t ruin your day. I’m not lying when I say I light too many candles. The bath bombs and bubble bath are purely there to keep me wanting to sit in the tub.

Don’t Type Your Symptoms Into Google
Google is not a doctor. Please do yourself, and literally everyone else, a favour, if you’re scared that something is wrong GO SEE A REAL DOCTOR! They’re there to help.

Be Better Than Me And Remember To Eat
I woke up yesterday morning feeling a bit better, and starving since I forgot to eat for a whole day. Food is good for you. Your body needs to have energy to help you get better. Please remember to eat <3

Be Kind To Yourself
Remember to rest, take a day off work to heal. Catch up on a movie and relax. Your body needs time to do its thing. You matter, don’t forget that.

And That’s What I’ve Got
My advice only goes so far. But that’s what this is; advice. Don’t use this over a doctors medical opinion please. PLEASE. Against my cold, these tips have really helped me survive. That and Benadryl when I just cannot sleep. If you’re sick too, may you get better soon and are able to get back to your normal lifestyle.

On A Side Note
Happy first day of spooky season! I wish I wasn’t starting October off sick, but here we are.

Time to get SPOOKY

Thanks for reading!
— Deryn

Feeling Thankful


I had a really bad panic attack the other night. Nothing I was doing was calming me down either. Deep breathing, trying to focus on something else in the room, even my go to safety song wasn’t helping with this one. I ended up falling off my bed and stuttering really bad that I scared myself. Something wasn’t right with this one and I needed help. My boyfriend noticed me and was startled himself. He’s never had one, nor been around someone who has. With no experience he was mostly trying to figure out what set me off. Having him there with me trying to figure out what was going on helped me relax and come back to reality. I’m so thankful he was there with me! I figured I’d share my experience. Anyways…

Thanks for reading!

— Deryn