My Current Hyperfixation

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So, I’m making a blanket. I found all my old crochet materials and decided I’d pick it up again. I’m not very good at it, but I enjoy it, and I can actually see the progress I’m making which helps my ADHD with consistent dopamine hits.

Stole this picture from my dad

I decided, I think it was my last year of high school, that I was going to learn to crochet because my grandma knit a lot and I wanted to hang out with her doing something similar. It was all mostly just to prove that I could. We would spend hours watching The Waltons and just making stuff. I remember lying to her about if I had a spare block just so I could come home early to get some episodes in before my dad got home from work.

Fun fact about this hobby, I can’t read crochet patterns, so I watch YouTube videos to learn stitches. I know how to do all the different stitches, and I know their names, but I just can’t read them and understand. That’s amusing to think about actually. I’ve made blankets, bows for Christmas presents, a bag once, and so many other things now, but I can’t follow a written pattern at all.

I think I’m going to put this blanket on my couch. It’s rather large as I was using my bed to measure width. Work today is slow, so I’m making more “knots” as my dad likes to say while waiting to go home this evening. I don’t mind waiting like this though, it’s supposed to hit almost 40° today and I get to spend that inside in air conditioning. If I wasn’t doing this, I’d probably be farming today. I’m almost done Year 2 in Story of Seasons now. Am I a boring person? Sometimes...

My Instagram will have updates on my blanket if you’d like to see it. Low key too, I’m using that app more, so if you want to see what I do in my spare time, go check it out! Shameless plug? Yep! Anyway, I’m struggling to focus, all I want to do is work on this blanket, so I’m leaving this post here. Thanks for stopping by today! Stay safe out there!
— Deryn

Happy Anniversary

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Wow! Guys, I’ve been doing this for a year now! How crazy is that?! It’s hard to believe that I started this as a hobby a year ago only to now use it for both my sanity, and to tell my stories. I’m excited about this! 

I’ve gone to England on this blog, I’ve hiked random trails around the Okanagan, and I’ve made friends of mine do new things just so I’m not alone on here. The adventures I get to experience, man I love what I do. 

Yes, I’m reusing pictures. Hush now

Without all of the people who tune in and read this every chance they have, I really would be nowhere. I’m baffled and grateful. And to the friends who read my work, and the friends I’ve made, thanks for being there for me! I know I say it a lot, but I really do love all of you.

That’s my office I work at on Tuesdays

I’ve been going through quite a bit lately with understanding trauma and growing for what feels like the first real time as a person. There’s a category of posts tagged under mental health here, and I’m appreciative that I can talk about those things. Being able to put what I’m feeling into words helps me understand what’s going on, and gives me the chance to work on it in a healthy manner.

I still love this picture

I love what I do, and I can see myself doing this for at least another year. This is, was? the best decision and hobby I ever threw myself at. Writing is just, I don’t think I have the words, it’s everything I really needed to control my heart and mind. I feel at peace behind this keyboard. And being able to take pictures of the world around me to show some adventures I get to take, this blog has really become my baby in a way. Many of you know more of what I do in a week than my family does. It’s weird how hobbies can change a person isn’t it?

As a thanks to helping me grow, and as a challenge to myself because I should have posted this forever ago, I’ve decided to post the opening paragraph to that book I still haven’t finished. That’ll be on the bottom of this page, and I am freaking out a bit over doing it, but now that I’ve said it I kind of have to. No one has read that yet, and I mean that. 

Water is neat, isn’t it?

Before I go for today, I figured some shameless plugs for myself are in order. Because I have things like Patreon, Instagram, Twitter, and with this being what I want to do as a career, I would love it if you checked them out. You all are amazing, and I cannot thank you enough. Have an amazing day and stay safe out there!
— Deryn

Clear page break before the novel piece.

Today has been interesting. I’ve never been surrounded by so many bland people. What is the point of drinking until you pass out? I guess that’s what I get for having hobbies and no real friends. I’d much rather be at home reading, or playing cards. Young adults with raging hormones are battling everywhere for attention and alcohol. Man, I’m fucking tired. And the music; oh my God this music is ass.

“Hey babe,” sparks up from behind me.

“Oh hey,” crap, what a lackluster response. 

“You alright?” Tones of kindness and love bring joy to my heart. How sweet, the poor guy is worried about me. 

“Yeah cutie, I’m fine. I don’t know, I guess I’m just tired.”

“Okay, well if you need me at all, I’m going to be over by the food tent.” His heads up of where he’s going is wholesome. 

Too bad this world is boring. Our reality is just a bunch of people trying to make their way in a world that doesn’t want them. If only my world had something worthwhile going on. Magic, airships, literally anything at this point would make life worth my damn time: all I want is a hint of excitement. Well, at least I have food I guess.

This food tent is mediocre: breakfast from a cheap fast food joint and an insult of an attempt at handmade food line the tables. Why serve breakfast with alcohol? Doesn’t dinner, or even greasy American food pair better? It doesn’t help that rain started pouring down. Today is just another waste of my time. 

“Babe! Look at what I found!” The only thing in this world I really care about is him, isn’t that strange? “It’s your favourite!” 

Oh hey: tequila! And it’s my favourite too!

Personal Growth

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It’s been almost a month of living with just one roommate, and I never thought I’d change so much in such a short amount of time. Not that long ago I was talking about having a garbage memory.
In case you missed that.
My big thing is since it’s just the two of us, my house feels different. Not in a bad way, but being just us two has helped out my mental health, and honestly my physical health quite a bit too.

Besides my hiking habits, we also bike quite a bit now. I used to be exhausted just going around my neighbourhood, but now I can go down right to the lake and be okay. Granted a huge piece is downhill but that’s way more than I used to be able to do. I’d be hiking more, but it’s been real crap weather and we went climbing as my last real workout day.
In case you missed that too.
As for my mental health, I feel good right now. Yeah life was thrown into a craze for a bit, but I’m honestly good. My roommate is so supportive and we get along really well. I’ve learned more about myself in the past month than in the last two years.

The people I choose to surround myself with are great people who support me and I am so lucky to be in the situation I’m in. I’m motivated to keep going too. I’ve said it a thousand times, I’m a lazy person by nature which clashes with how I’ve been living my life.

With weather improving and nothing but time, I’m definitely going hiking more soon and I promise I’ll get some nice pictures! For now, my flowers living their best lives will be the pictures I post.

Well, since I’m here, an update!
My plants are doing well. The flowers are just thriving. The rose has no full blooming flowers right now though. My potatoes are growing like weeds unlike my lettuce which I cannot figure out why, but is staying rather small. And my army of tomatoes are growing in nicely! That’s all for the garden really.

And that’s all for today now that I look at the time. Thanks for stopping by today! I really appreciate all of you! Have an awesome day!
— Deryn

Fresh Air

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Life has recently been flipped upside down for me. My boyfriend and I split, work went south and my depression came sliding into my DM’s like the asshole it is. So I decided I needed to redo myself. Not in a bad way! But things such as redoing my room, and my hair!

This process has been going on for a bit now, so I’ll start with my bedroom! I read this thing once, that if the person your seeing has their bed in the middle of their room, they have their life together. Mine was there, and I moved it, against a window. Cause of this, my room is oddly large. I’ve never seen it so empty and it’s weird.

Photo Credits

I washed all my bedding and got some stuffed animals for my bed, as well as a little rug to try and help fill the floor space. A healthy bookshelf and opening my curtains makes my bedroom look alive. Now all I need is some wall art and I’ll be set!

I’ve always wanted to try being blonde. Something about your own natural hair, the complete opposite is just magnetizing. My lovely roommate cut and coloured my hair over a whole afternoon. I’m sure somewhere on my Instagram I’ve got a selfie to show it off. If not I’ll make sure to flood it.

Other than that, hobbies are what I’m working on. I’m reading more, walking and biking around, and just trying to enjoy life as best I can. I also downloaded TikTok, so when I’m feeling lazy or in an episode, I’m sometimes learning things. It’s crazy how reading and biking for about an hour a day can really change a person!

Photo Credits

Start every morning with a song, then bike to the closest coffee shop to help wake up is an interesting addition to my morning routine I never thought I’d have. I definitely feel better, although I have my ups and downs just like anyone else. But at the end of the day I really feel like I’m doing well.

The start to this adventure has been a blessing really. And being able to talk about it is uplifting. Thanks for reading today!
— Deryn

Went Rock Climbing

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Technically it’s “bouldering” but not everyone knows that term so… But yeah, did that recently. Now, I have an extreme fear of falling which makes things like climbing a wall rather difficult. But that doesn’t mean I’m not going to try, right? 
When I say extreme fear, it’s bad enough I won’t jump into bed because I have to fall like, half an inch maybe. It’s terrible!

We got there early just in case any of our waver’s were wrong. Since it was kind of empty, we had the option to just jump right in. We did. One hundred percent going for it! The gym looks so nice on the inside, colours everywhere to determine skill levels and add a vibrant enthusiasm. And the people, it’s all around a well made environment. 

Gloomy day is gloomy

I’m not the strongest person I’ve ever met, so I decided to just try going up a tad and then attempt coming back down. With my falling issue, I figured this would be a good idea. It took a good few tries, but once I really went for it, I was having fun. I ended up even trying to fall a couple times just to prove to myself it wasn’t completely terrible, and that didn’t work… But I still tried!

The gym itself constantly moves around the climbing pieces to spice up the experience, so the one wall I really wanted to beat will be moved by the time I get to go back. Not having a car is starting to get to me I think… I just want to go back so bad…

All in all, I loved going! Tomorrow I’m definitely going to be sore in my arms and legs, whatever though right? I had so much fun doing that. I’m going to go buy shoes for it though, the rental sizes only do a full shoe size and I feel a half size would help me a lot. The shoes are a custom style like a ballet slipper. 

The Next Day
I’m sore, tired and am two hundred percent buying shoes so I can do this again soon! I recommend trying this! Do it! This particular facility is open until 10:30 at night, so it works really well with my schedule. 

Some cute bunnies I saw!

I’m super sore though, so I’m going to go take a bath. I hope you have an AWESOME day! And stay safe out there!

— Deryn