Alone

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Quarantine and a wack sleep schedule have dismissed the idea that I was ever going to be in my house alone for more than two hours. Now that both roommates are working, I’m all alone in my place, besides the animals of course, and it’s super weird. I’m not used to being left to my own devices for too long. I mean, on one hand, I can do whatever I want all morning right? 

My morning starts with being bullied out of bed by two hungry, and rather large cats. I say that, I bully myself because I love them too much and don’t want anything bad to happen to them. And Midna is a good girl too who has THE SMALLEST BLADDER EVER! Dogs…

What a cute puppy!

Now on with the rest of my day. Jordan is home first at 3:30ish. By this time it’s about 8:30 or 9:00 in the morning and I’m freaking out mildly. I have too much time alone and don’t know what to do. I’m trying to get into a routine with cleaning right away in the morning. If I can burn all of my “AHH!!!” energy right away, I’ll have been somewhat productive, right? Dishes are always somehow dirty?? Literally I don’t even understand how I own so many dishes that cannot be kept clean??? And I just did so much laundry recently I’m scared of my next water bill.

Lunch time rolls around and I have nothing left I need to do. By now my brain is trying to drive me insane. To deal with this, I either start gaming, deep cleaning a room, or attempt to write some more. I never stick to it though as YouTube usually takes my attention. Instant entertainment is dangerous really. That or I can’t stay home anymore and I just got for a walk.

I found him walking around the other day

Realization kicks in that I’ve spent at least a few hours doing literally nothing and that I’m hungry. Jordan should be home soon, so I’ll essentially make him an early dinner and myself a late lunch. That works! My famous chicken and hash browns! That’s a joke. It’s pretty good, but I am anything but a chef. Comfort food is the best.

With one roommate home, that means only a few hours until the other one is back too. Overall I’ve been alone for about seven hours. I’ve been alone longer at work, but for some bizarre reason, this sucks so much for me. I say that, but I have abandonment issues. But yeah, I spent a bit of time alone, and I hate it.

He got whipped cream on his whisker!

That’s all I’ve got for today though. Thanks for stopping by today, you’re amazing! Stay safe out there! I’ll talk soon!
— Deryn

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Back to Work

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I know right, LAME! For the past, oh I don’t know, month-ish, I’ve been at home off work because the world has been low key ending. I mean I don’t mind too much, I get to go back and make more adventure stories, but at the same time, I’ve really learned that overworking myself like I was isn’t what I want to do anymore. I want to have time with my friends, and to have time to garden and enjoy life. I also have to look at getting a job with more pay, because that’s what’s going to hinder me the most with getting a house.

I’ve been still doing my Tuesday’s with getting yelled at for twelve hours at a time, but other than that, I haven’t been doing much besides living my best life. My computer is finally built even, so I’d rather be home and gaming or creating content. Plus I have a couple more things I have to do in my trailer before I can list it.

My dad’s lilac tree!

I made some calls and asked way too many questions so I think I understand the problem I was having looking at places to purchase. That problem being I just don’t make enough money. With that in mind, I need to change what kind of property I’m looking at. The down payment I’ll have just isn’t good enough. I’ve been learning a lot and it’s really opening my eyes to the idea that I’m going to be a corporate slave forever.

With going back, I can’t work for as little as I make right now, which is too bad because I really enjoy my job. I’m going to have to look at some other opportunities to try and make enough. And if I do end up buying a property in the near future, I want to be able to manage it and not cry every time bills are due. I’ve applied for a few jobs now, so fingers crossed I get something back!

This rhubarb is so dang pretty!

I’ll still keep to my schedule for posting as best I can. I don’t see it becoming a problem, but my memory is trash after all. Plus I may open up streaming or something eventually. But yeah, that’s all I’ve got for today. Thanks as always for stopping by, have an awesome day!
— Deryn

A Day in my Lame Life

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I only say my life is lame because I have no more work stories, bus adventures, or people adventures really since quarantine. I’m a tad bit on the “I miss human interaction” to the point I miss work kind if bored. My roommates are great, don’t get me wrong, but I want to take the bus downtown, get Starbucks with my friend Bella and bitch about my week like I used to do.
Don’t mind me just complaining over being a retail slave. Working since fourteen does that to a person however. I’ve talked about a “Day in the Life” before, – Link to Post – but I think it needs an update with everyone being under quarantine.

Any Day that isn’t Tuesday
Let’s hope I went to bed at a reasonable time because I always feel guilty waking up after 8am. Although I’ve noticed I stay up stupid late on Wednesday, only to miss garbage pick up the next morning. It’s lame.
From there, I have options. I’m not leaving home unless we take Midna on a walk: do I wear something super cute, or mega comfy? Usually I pick comfort just because that’s what I would normally do. Sometimes I’m feeling spicy and try on something super cute though, just to feel like I’m leaving the house for a fun event.
I’ve been addicted to Animal Crossing so I have to get my daily stupid mission crap in. If you don’t have the game, are looking for something to do, and have like 600 extra dollars, you should consider getting it. Solid game, casual, and it’s just a great unwinding tool all around. So that’s usually what I do first.
My roommate is oddly competitive depending on the situation. Her old roommate decided he was going to keep in shape while working, so he’s doing a “One Punch Man” style workout. If you don’t know what that is, it’s one hundred push ups, crunches and squats and a ten mile run. The only thing he isn’t doing is the run, which I get. Running is actually evil. So of course, my roommate has to show him up and do 110 of each. That’s fine right, nope, because now I feel like I have to do it too. It’s a good idea and honestly super healthy, but I’m me and super lazy, so I’m dying every day. I can do the push ups no problem, don’t know why I can but it’s just a thing I’m going to accept. Everything else, literal death. I’m getting better with squats, and crunches are almost as evil and running. Normally we work out after my morning gaming session.
Now that the hard part of my day is over, I can just die for the rest of the day. My body is very not used to being worked like that. Now I have another decision I have to make, should I clean, or game more? Normally gaming wins, but I really have to do dishes today, so cleaning unfortunately. Otherwise, I’ve also been playing Rune Factory.
Sometimes we decide we should walk down to the lake with Midna too. If we go walking, that takes like four hours.
After all of that, early dinner since the boyfriend is still working. He’s off at 3:30. So we try and have dinner ready for him. Dinner, bonding over dorky YouTube videos or a movie, and then back to gaming for me for a few more hours.
Side note, I’m actually so lame, holy frick.
And that’s my day!

Except Tuesday…
Because I still work Tuesday. I’m still dispatching one day a week. I go to work so eager now too. Mostly because I get to interact with people who I don’t see everyfriggenday. I love my roommates, I really do, but I miss people! Even that job is slowing down though.

My life is super straight forward. I don’t really do much with the world being on lock down, but it’s been good for me mentally and hopefully by the end of it all, I can actually do more than five crunches in a row…

I know I’ve talked about this before, but like I said I felt like it needed an update. Doing this helps me see my life in a different light, so that’s low key why I did it. Thanks for following with me! Be safe out there!
— Deryn

Digital Cleanup

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Having a laptop again, and an awesome thumb drive from Black Friday sales, I’ve decided to clean up my phone and digital footprint. A lot of my social media I made while still in middle school, which was almost ten years ago now, so I’ve decided to do a purge of sorts for the incoming new year. There’s a lot I have to clean, so this post is going to be an overview of what I did, as well as screenshots of extra cringy crap I find, ya know, since I hate myself and want to immortalize is on here forever.

First, my Twitter. – This One – Now, I saw that one because awhile back, I found the one I made when I was actually fresh into grade seven. That was awful. I’ve since deleted it, but there’s a good story to it, it’s a longer read and I’m sorry in advance.
My phone logged me out of my twitter, which happens right? So I tried logging back in with the email I thought it was, and go a whole different Twitter. The picture was of my fresh fourteen with my hair in braids looking terrible. But this was very much mine, I was tagging friends I had, and complaining about teachers; it was my old Twitter. So I decided I was going to update some information, just in case I wanted this later, and it locked me out! Said I was too young when I made the account, which was totally fair. So in the proving who I am, I wrote on the picture, “You can delete this, I’m just going to when you give it back. I’ve since made a new one.” Nope, I got it back, they just deleted everything from the years I was too young to use the platform. Cool, I think? So I just deleted it myself.
So with that, I’ve decided to clean up my new one. I’ve tried my best to use it for blog posts, and for supporting YouTubers and streamers I enjoy. Less cringe on this front, hopefully anyway. We’ll see later down the road I guess.

Next is my Instagram. – This Basic Selfie Collection – Going through and actually looking at it, there are more cat pictures and blog updates than selfies now. I think that’s quite the accomplishment! Shadow is just so photogenic, and I was trying to document my trips I was going on. Fitting how my first picture is of my tree in the front yard, when it’s covered in snow it looks like a Christmas tree. Overall, there wasn’t a lot to clean there. What’s next?

Oh right, Pinterest could use some TLC. – This mess – I fixed the hyperlink to match my Twitter, which I should do the same to Instagram. But now there’s the boards. This is going to take forever. Just one board took two hours to organize. Just kill me now. Onto the second board that needs help, and I’m hating myself more and more. This is ass. It’s going to look amazing when I’m done though! If I ever get there.
After another three hours, I quit. I’ll chip away at it and clean it up later. Maybe when I have a bottle of wine to spare, but for right now, that can just burn.

I guess my Patreon counts as a digital thing I use doesn’t it? Well, I only have like four things on there, so I’ll leave it alone.
Same with my PayPal. Those can be left to just keep on keeping on. – PayPal and Patreon

I guess I should include my Tumblr. Technically it’s part of this grouping. – Link – That’s actually more of a mess than my Pinterest. So I’ll just unfollow blogs and move on. Maybe clean up a link or two.

Now, onto the real monster, my cell phone. (Dramatic horror music in the background intensifies) I have thousands of screenshots saved on my phone, which I’m going to either save on my computer, or just delete cause I’ve saved them somewhere else.

My cell phone wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be. Just deleted a few folders and some contacts. With my memory being ruined, I don’t even know half of the pictures nor contacts in my phone anymore.

And that’s really it I can think of right now. I frequently clean my Facebook so I don’t have to worry, and I can’t think of anything else I have. So, I guess I did it? I don’t feel any different at the moment, but I know it’ll hit me soon enough. Thanks for coming with on this adventure!
And thanks for reading!
— Deryn

Winter Rituals

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With snow coming soon, I have to prepare for hiding away all winter long. I don’t like being cold, and without the sun around as often, I tend to find myself becoming a shut in, or hermit even.

Lately I’ve been doing small workouts to try and keep me both in shape, and motivated throughout my day. I have a 10lb weight that I use, and I just do small exercises but I find it really helps. Even just the idea of pulling myself out of bed because I “have to do this” can be a great motivator to doing anything. Don’t get me wrong, working out sucks, but doing these little things every day really gets you into the routine and then you don’t stop. Plus, my butt is looking better now that it’s been almost a month and if that isn’t the dream then I don’t know what is.

Baking is something I’ve always wanted to get into, even though I don’t eat sweets, and winter is the perfect time. The delicious smells, and warmth of the oven just fills a house right up. I’ve never made anything worth writing home over, but I’m going to try this year I think. I’ll share links if I do, but I’ll probably share them on my Pinterest. I have a rather large cooking board I know, but this year I’m going to start using it.

Keeping in touch with any of my friends while being shut in and dead half the time is super hard, so this year I’ve put in measures to bully myself into being social. I’ve set reminders in my phone, and bought some new cards for magic so that I have to go out. How can I show off my amazing new deck if I don’t leave my house? And with my phone going off all the time telling me to say hi to people, I’m going to cave eventually and listen to it. At least, that’s the plan.

Shadow would kill me if I never got out of bed. I feed this little dick and make sure his litter box is clean. So if I just never got up, he’d invade the bed and meow until I woke up. He is such a needy attention seeking floof and I love him.

Winter is a rough season for me mentally sometimes, but i’m going to nip this one in the butt** and not let it get me down. Plus with my new found Starbucks addiction, I should be okay this winter. Got any tips? Let me know! As always, follow me here and here, and I appreciate you all!
Thanks for reading!
— Deryn

P.S. Apparently it’s “nip this in the bud” and not butt. Oops I guess.