Alone

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Quarantine and a wack sleep schedule have dismissed the idea that I was ever going to be in my house alone for more than two hours. Now that both roommates are working, I’m all alone in my place, besides the animals of course, and it’s super weird. I’m not used to being left to my own devices for too long. I mean, on one hand, I can do whatever I want all morning right? 

My morning starts with being bullied out of bed by two hungry, and rather large cats. I say that, I bully myself because I love them too much and don’t want anything bad to happen to them. And Midna is a good girl too who has THE SMALLEST BLADDER EVER! Dogs…

What a cute puppy!

Now on with the rest of my day. Jordan is home first at 3:30ish. By this time it’s about 8:30 or 9:00 in the morning and I’m freaking out mildly. I have too much time alone and don’t know what to do. I’m trying to get into a routine with cleaning right away in the morning. If I can burn all of my “AHH!!!” energy right away, I’ll have been somewhat productive, right? Dishes are always somehow dirty?? Literally I don’t even understand how I own so many dishes that cannot be kept clean??? And I just did so much laundry recently I’m scared of my next water bill.

Lunch time rolls around and I have nothing left I need to do. By now my brain is trying to drive me insane. To deal with this, I either start gaming, deep cleaning a room, or attempt to write some more. I never stick to it though as YouTube usually takes my attention. Instant entertainment is dangerous really. That or I can’t stay home anymore and I just got for a walk.

I found him walking around the other day

Realization kicks in that I’ve spent at least a few hours doing literally nothing and that I’m hungry. Jordan should be home soon, so I’ll essentially make him an early dinner and myself a late lunch. That works! My famous chicken and hash browns! That’s a joke. It’s pretty good, but I am anything but a chef. Comfort food is the best.

With one roommate home, that means only a few hours until the other one is back too. Overall I’ve been alone for about seven hours. I’ve been alone longer at work, but for some bizarre reason, this sucks so much for me. I say that, but I have abandonment issues. But yeah, I spent a bit of time alone, and I hate it.

He got whipped cream on his whisker!

That’s all I’ve got for today though. Thanks for stopping by today, you’re amazing! Stay safe out there! I’ll talk soon!
— Deryn

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Happy Birthday Dad!

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Today is my amazing fathers birthday. He’s forty-three today (yeah he’s young) and I will spend the whole day making fun of him for getting older. But I really wanted to tell him how much he matters to me.

Yeah I know I’m such a daddy’s girl, but my dad has been there for me my whole life. He was the only parent in my life and I treasure him more than I think he knows. He’s been with me from learning to walk to my first break up: from my first homework project to my first job interview. We’ve made time every birthday to celebrate each other and how much we care.

This year I wanted to surprise him with loads of gifts, however I planned my vacation at an odd time and don’t have the money to literally spoil him. Because of this, I wanted to make something to show my gratitude, as well as buy him a thing or two, but mostly this.

Dad, you’ve hit level forty-three in life, and that’s hilarious that we’re measuring it levels now. I know I haven’t seen all those years, but I am thrilled to see the rest. You’ve got a bald spot coming in on the back of your head and there is nothing you can do to hide it so stop trying. Thank you for being who you are even if that person is a five year old hiding in an adults body… I’m sorry I have to work today and can’t sit at home and watch TV with you, but I’m sure when my brother wakes up you’ll have a good laugh with him over whatever it is you’re watching before he goes to play his video games. Did you get some cake today? Cause if you didn’t I’m so going to buy one for you. Feel free to go to my house and steal Shadow for the day if you want. Or honestly just let yourself in and spend the day with him and my boyfriend. Just remember, today is about you. Not work, or bills, or none of that adult crap. Spend today being awesome, although that’s not hard for someone like you. I love you dad! Congrats on leveling up!

— Deryn