An Ideal Day

The other day I had a real bad day and it got me thinking about what I would call “a good day”. Everyone is different right? So what would be my special and ideal day? Now in case you didn’t know, I’m a simple person with simple needs. I really just want a day off where I can eat popcorn and pet Shadow while watching sims videos. But that doesn’t make a full length blog post, so I figured I’d dive a little deeper.

My bed is literally the best. I’d love to wake up well rested under way too many blankets. All snuggled up and warm, with clear abandonment issues but whatever. Waking up is just waking up though, so that would be that.

From there, a quality breakfast of literally anything with potato. Mostly cause I have a problem and need potatoes… And then plop my ass, on my couch. Sims on the TV and Shadow doing that thing where he stretches and takes up the rest of my free space.

No calls from work, no worries in the world. Just me, myself, and Shadow. And maybe a good story or two to share on social media.

After spending too long being a lazy butt, probably move into a bubble bath and let my body heal from overworking myself all the time. While also planning dinner.

The rest of my day would be dinner, then Magic the Gathering with some friends until at least midnight where we all finally are too tired and head home. Only to then dream of the next day in the comfort of my safety blankets once again.

And yeah, that’s my ideal day Thanks for reading! And have yourself an awesome day!
— Deryn

I’m Useless Today

I woke up this morning super sick… And, being a Tuesday, I’ve gotta work. Today is a long shift too (6am to 6pm). As of 4:30am, which is when I started writing this, I haven’t left the bathroom for almost an hour. And with that, I remembered I can’t miss my blog post! So here I am!
Stuff I’d much rather be doing today!
By the way, I’m going to try and edit this and make it look all nice, but I’m feeling -100/10 so no promises. Sorry in advance!

Being able to actually eat…
I’m starving, but because I’m nauseous, I can’t even look at food and not die a little. Yesterday was half off pizza and I made sure to save some for lunch today, but I just cannot eat. This sucks, if I were at home right now, I’d be making my own mac n cheese that I’ve been planning for a week.

Writing!
I wrote another short a couple days ago and so far it’s actually pretty good. It’s a little too short so I’m working on it. I was researching how to self publish shorts myself and it’s super easy if I go through Amazon. I really don’t like that company but it’s the easiest that I can find. Plus the audience that comes with that. But actually doing it is another thing.

Reno’s
I am a lazy human. I should be done my renovations, but here I am. Counters are half done, the one room is finally painted, and no matter how much I caulk my shower it just never seems to be finished. Life is just a lot and I should get on top of it, but blerg.

I’m sick, my body aches and I really just want to take a nap. But I guess I’m stuck here, dying. (I’m not actually dying, I’m just being a baby.) It’s almost noon now and I’m ready to call my night person and call it quits. But, I’m going to tough this out and go for as long as I can. For those who are curious, it’s -17 outside and I’m so sad, although my office is +20 ish because I’m sick.

So, yeah. Thanks for coming by today. And I’m sorry again if this post is all over the place.
Have an awesome day!
— Deryn

What I Accomplished this Year

2019 has been an odd year for sure. Work has been all over the place, my memory has given out on me, and I’m trying to sell the house I grew up in. Today, I want to talk about all the highlights and maybe tell a couple stories.

One of the major things I did was start this blog. Having impulse purchased the domain, and jumped head first into something without any planning or idea on what I was going to do, this blog has been one of the best decisions I’ve made. Writing almost every day, interacting with so many new people, and really finding my way in the world are just some of the things this blog has given me.

For those who don’t know, my memory is messed. I have lost way more than I want. A decent amount stuff prior to about four years ago is just gone. At first that frightened me, but now I’ve kind got over it now. So I’ve been rummaging through old diaries and year books trying to remember some things, but to no avail. At this point, I’m just going to have to accept my memory troubles and move on.

My attempt at a novel is slowly coming together, and that’s pretty exciting! I wrote and shared a short story. – Link to That – And overall I’ve really improved on my writing. Now I just have to read more and I’d be all set. I’ve seen different bloggers take pieces or their blog and turn them into an eBook, and I think that might be something I’ll look into for a project for next year.

2020 is going to be an interesting year for sure. Hopefully it goes uphill hard, unlike everything since 2012. The roaring twenties are going to be fun! Thanks for coming along on this adventure, and I hope that this year was kind to you. May next year be as well!

And as always…
Thanks for reading!
— Deryn

Almost Done

This year is getting closer and closer to the end, and that’s just crazy! The more I think about it, the more excited I get to start a fresh year with the infrastructure I’ve built for myself. So, I figured I would make a plan for everything I want to achieve over 2020 for my blog, myself, and everything in between. This post might get long, so sorry in advance, and I promise I’ll add some pictures. That promise is mostly for me, I get distracted easily.

For myself, I really want to keep my cooking and workout train rolling. In case you’ve missed it, I’ve been cooking quite a bit. Which has helped out with actually having energy and it’s actually fun. Get a killer playlist going and I can make full meals without getting bored and that taste amazing! – Link to the Last Post

Working out on the other hand, sucks. Mega sucks in fact. I hate doing it, I hate how I feel after, and I am super lazy, so it’s just difficult. But, my body looks a lot nicer than it did six months ago. After winter it starts getting warm, so I really should keep doing this, and getting strong, but it’s just awful. But I’m also not a quitter and like proving people wrong, so I’m going to continue to suffer.

This is a Plumbob, it floats above a Sims head. Owned by EA

I was watching a video on someone trying to make their apartment “perfect”, and they used The Sims to make it happen. – Link to Video – It really got me thinking about how life should be, and not how the world is trying to make it.

As for the blog, I’m hoping to give it a face lift or two, having to tag social media every post got old for me fast, so I want to get widgets and such for that. I’m also hoping to do the same with my social media so everything matches this. That just seems like a cool and effective thing to do. Plus, I have a lot, like – Link after Link – Plus Another Couple Links

I was reading a blog post by Jenny in Neverland because I love her blog so much, and I want to make a plan for my blog out, so keep an eye out for some snippets of that. I’m going to change my schedule around for sure, but I’ll make sure to let everyone know before I do.

For sure though, I’m going to work harder, smarter and overall as best as I can to make this blog, and my life as great as they can be. And buy a house, hopefully. This year has been a lot of up’s and down’s and I’m excited to see what happens through 2020 and the future. Plus I have to finish this book I’ve been writing eventually. If there are certain things you want to see from me, let me know! I’d love to hear from everyone!

Thank you to everyone who has stopped by, creeped my social media, and even decided to follow me through everything. And as always, thanks for reading!
— Deryn

Just Over a Month Left

This year is almost over already, isn’t that crazy? I’ve been blogging for about six months now, and I really enjoy this. I’ve learned a lot, met some new people and I even got to go back to my favourite country! Looking back at everything now, I’m so thankful for everyone in my life, and all of the awesome things I’ve got to do. With all that said, this year in particular has been fantastic for my mental and physical health.

Beautiful Picture – Credits

Mental health is a big thing for me, and even though I’ve started having panic attacks a bit more than I used to, I’m also starting to care about myself and how I feel. Taking more time out of my day for people I actually enjoy, and for hobbies that are healthy mostly. My crochet projects are still sad, but my cooking and baking are a lot better than prior to summer. And being able to blog, I constantly write bits of posts and just delete them after, but they help me get things off my chest. Ya know?

Physical health has never been my number one priority. Back in high school I worked out quite a bit from being in a dance class, but that was about it, and it’s been almost five years since I graduated. Only recently have I been working out regularly and making food that doesn’t rely on the microwave. Now, that ain’t much, but it’s enough I have actual energy and I’m happy. I haven’t been able to really mean that for awhile. I’m going to keep these habits going, and continue to be the best I can be.

Beautiful Picture – Credits

It takes a lot to recognize what is bringing you down, and even more to remove that, or learn how to stop letting said thing control you. Life can suck, a lot, and there’s nothing wrong with telling people you need a day off. Take care of yourself, and don’t forget, you matter. And feel free to reach out if you want someone to talk to.

Holidays are hard for a lot of people because of either family of the household, I know what that’s like. Stay strong everyone. And hopefully, if you get snow, it’s beautiful and not life ending. Thanks for following me for these past few months. You’re all amazing!
As always, follow me – Here and Here – and I appreciate it! Anyways…
Thanks for reading!
— Deryn

For Days I Can’t Focus

Now, full disclaimer, I’m not diagnosed with anything that would affect my ability to focus, but some days I can’t do anything for more that five minutes. Today is one of those days. I’ve been trying to build new MTG decks and I cannot focus enough to read half the cards, so I moved onto playing a board game and couldn’t focus to learn new rules. With the struggles, I figured I’d do dishes, washed the same plate four times. Friends have been messaging me all day and I can’t read what they’re sending.

Thoughts are just flooding my head and being so loud, it sucks so much. Even scratching my head has to be quick. My one friend recommended I sit in my bedroom and just relax, which ended poorly. I started going down the rabbit hole that is my brain and had a panic attack. Even Shadow is tired of following me around the house because I’m just walking back and forth.

Not being able to focus has stopped me from being able to notice things that should really be noticed, such as when something hurts. There are so many thoughts fighting for my attention that I don’t notice when I’m burning my hand, or that I sliced my finger while making dinner. Pain really should be what’s on my mind but I can’t focus on anything. I have a bad habit of biting the inside of my cheek, and I have been doing it for hours, I know I’m doing it even, but the pain isn’t registering so I haven’t stopped.

Now before people freak out, I’m not hurting myself. I’m just unable to tell things hurt until it’s a little late right now. I’m frustrated but I’m trying to slow myself down. After building four new decks and dancing for an hour, I think I’m starting to relax. Being able to think before doing things helps so much.

I’m sorry if this post is all over the place, but I really wanted to force myself to write this and focus on something for more than ten minutes. I love you all! Thanks for putting up with me today!
Thanks for reading!
— Deryn

Happy Birthday to Me

So that’s a thing. I’m twenty-two today and I’m doing nothing that exciting. Today’s agenda is comprised of work, woo… And then tonight we’re headed out to play some cards and have some drinks, which I’m most excited for! This morning my boyfriend made me breakfast.

Somethings I asked for – Cause I’m broke, I asked for things that can help my everyday life be just a tad bit easier. Examples are bus tickets, gift cards, that sort of thing. I’m low key hoping my boyfriend buys me a cute magic card or something. But that’s cause I’m a nerd. Otherwise, I’m wanting to see my friends more than anything.

I’ve decided that today I’m going to relax, put minimal effort into sales, and write some more. On a side note, I’ve been riding the bus more and have made a compilation of sorts of weird people. The bus is so strange.

Today’s post isn’t going to be too long as I am going to try and relax today. So pardon the lack of words. Is there anything you want me to talk about? Let me know! Come hang out here and here. Support is always appreciated, here and here. And as always…
Thanks for reading!
— Deryn