Rough News


I got bullied into giving up my position at the Adult Store. I don’t know what I did, but honestly there’s not a lot I can do about it. With that, I spent an unholy amount of time writing up a hefty Patreon post with a rough idea on what I’m going to do now. What’s my Patreon you ask, well it’s the only thing with the same name as my website!
Because I’m me, I figured I’d write out what I said again so if you want the extended version, which you probably don’t, it’s here. 

With having so much more free time on my hands, I’ve decided I’m going to invest that into my blog, my writing, and my photography. My website could use and expansion, and I could stand to learn some tips on handling this sucker better. There are probably a trillion different resources out there too, so I’m good.

Graffiti out the Wazoo

I mostly want to do this more, so I’ve planned out some scheduling updates and future plans. They’re not bad, I promise. It’s just more of me. 
Right now, I just post something on Tuesday’s and Thursday’s. I have my closet almost finished, so why not do something fun with fashion? It won’t always be me playing dress-up, because I like looking at what’s new and different trends, so I figured something like “Fashion Friday”. Maybe even throw in my attempts at learning makeup into that and I’ll be ready to go!
I also really enjoy gaming, and with having nothing to do all weekend, Monday GameDay is what I’m thinking. That gives me two days to try something new, or invest time into something I really enjoy. Plus I can buy Turnips on Sunday so… But yeah, some schedule updates for the near future. I say the near future, but I have a few more things I have to still do.

My writing and photography skills are not of legend, but that doesn’t mean I should give up on them. I’m going to take the time to hopefully finish a draft or two of my novel this year, and buy a camera. For those who are curious, since my last novel update I’ve written maybe three words. It’s rough I know. And with photography, I live in such a beautiful place, I would live to show it to the world. Even if I don’t buy a camera right away, my phone does a really good job.

I want to grow who I am on the internet and as a person. With that, I need help. I know not everyone has the money to spare, so please, follow my social media, comment on stuff, and share who I am with people you know. I’m always around and I really enjoy everything that has come out of this hobby I started almost year ago now.
I appreciate all of you, and I cannot say that enough. Without you, I wouldn’t have made it this far. You mean a lot to me, and I hope you all are safe and well right now.

Some Good Boys

I know I say it a lot, but thank you so much for stopping by today. Be safe!
— Deryn


A Day in my Lame Life


I only say my life is lame because I have no more work stories, bus adventures, or people adventures really since quarantine. I’m a tad bit on the “I miss human interaction” to the point I miss work kind if bored. My roommates are great, don’t get me wrong, but I want to take the bus downtown, get Starbucks with my friend Bella and bitch about my week like I used to do.
Don’t mind me just complaining over being a retail slave. Working since fourteen does that to a person however. I’ve talked about a “Day in the Life” before, – Link to Post – but I think it needs an update with everyone being under quarantine.

Any Day that isn’t Tuesday
Let’s hope I went to bed at a reasonable time because I always feel guilty waking up after 8am. Although I’ve noticed I stay up stupid late on Wednesday, only to miss garbage pick up the next morning. It’s lame.
From there, I have options. I’m not leaving home unless we take Midna on a walk: do I wear something super cute, or mega comfy? Usually I pick comfort just because that’s what I would normally do. Sometimes I’m feeling spicy and try on something super cute though, just to feel like I’m leaving the house for a fun event.
I’ve been addicted to Animal Crossing so I have to get my daily stupid mission crap in. If you don’t have the game, are looking for something to do, and have like 600 extra dollars, you should consider getting it. Solid game, casual, and it’s just a great unwinding tool all around. So that’s usually what I do first.
My roommate is oddly competitive depending on the situation. Her old roommate decided he was going to keep in shape while working, so he’s doing a “One Punch Man” style workout. If you don’t know what that is, it’s one hundred push ups, crunches and squats and a ten mile run. The only thing he isn’t doing is the run, which I get. Running is actually evil. So of course, my roommate has to show him up and do 110 of each. That’s fine right, nope, because now I feel like I have to do it too. It’s a good idea and honestly super healthy, but I’m me and super lazy, so I’m dying every day. I can do the push ups no problem, don’t know why I can but it’s just a thing I’m going to accept. Everything else, literal death. I’m getting better with squats, and crunches are almost as evil and running. Normally we work out after my morning gaming session.
Now that the hard part of my day is over, I can just die for the rest of the day. My body is very not used to being worked like that. Now I have another decision I have to make, should I clean, or game more? Normally gaming wins, but I really have to do dishes today, so cleaning unfortunately. Otherwise, I’ve also been playing Rune Factory.
Sometimes we decide we should walk down to the lake with Midna too. If we go walking, that takes like four hours.
After all of that, early dinner since the boyfriend is still working. He’s off at 3:30. So we try and have dinner ready for him. Dinner, bonding over dorky YouTube videos or a movie, and then back to gaming for me for a few more hours.
Side note, I’m actually so lame, holy frick.
And that’s my day!

Except Tuesday…
Because I still work Tuesday. I’m still dispatching one day a week. I go to work so eager now too. Mostly because I get to interact with people who I don’t see everyfriggenday. I love my roommates, I really do, but I miss people! Even that job is slowing down though.

My life is super straight forward. I don’t really do much with the world being on lock down, but it’s been good for me mentally and hopefully by the end of it all, I can actually do more than five crunches in a row…

I know I’ve talked about this before, but like I said I felt like it needed an update. Doing this helps me see my life in a different light, so that’s low key why I did it. Thanks for following with me! Be safe out there!
— Deryn

I Suck I’m Sorry


So I was getting a new phone and honestly, again, forgot it’s Thursday. I got an S10 by Samsung! It’s brand new so I haven’t even got a chance to properly play with it yet. I’ll let you know how I feel about it soon!

Anyway, how are you? Everything in your life good? I’m riding a high mentally right now, although I have no idea if it’s long term or I’m just manic.

This phone is literally downloading everything again, and I have TOO MUCH STUFF! But whatever, I’ll sort through that later.

So, it’s almost St. Patrick’s day huh? That’s fun! I “donated” a shamrock butt plug to the irish pub two doors down for their big festival-like thing they’re doing tonight. I hope I make someone’s day with that.

Sorry I’m again late, and a mess today. But you’re amazing and I love you! And as always, thanks for reading!
— Deryn

How I’ve Been Dealing with Memory Loss


Prior to my nineteenth birthday, my memory is foggy at best. I don’t know quite what happened to mess it up either, and I occasionally have an “Ah ha” moment where I remember something in particular! But it’s been weird.

When I was younger, I doodled and wrote a frick load in journals and diaries. This has been extra helpful piecing together friendships and nightmares of my younger years. Most of it was typical young people problems like outfits and homework, but there’s definitely bits I wish I didn’t read. I also apparently doodled hearts on EVERYTHING which is odd, but whatever I guess.

The memory loss is also affecting my current memory. I can’t remember shit half the time... I usually have at least one journal on me at a time to write down stuff I should remember. My boyfriend likes to poke fun at me because I’ll tell him about something fun I did, and his response is one of two; “Babe, I was there” or “Babe, you told me this story already”. It’s not my fault my memory is actual trash! At least I don’t think it is...

I don’t know if this memory problem will continue as I get older, but honestly the way I see it: if I don’t remember such a large portion of life, maybe I shouldn’t remember, right?

But yeah, that’s my life. Wanna support my consistant need to have a journal? – PayPal Patreon – Anyway thanks for reading!
— Deryn

Focus Focus Focus


I struggle to focus, especially when it comes to something I really should do. This morning I was trying to read an article on Civilization V and it was rather long for my attention span, but I really wanted to read it. Pushing through the want to tab out and watch a stream, I finally finished it and was super proud of myself. Even sitting here right now and trying to type this out, I’m struggling.

Just like anyone else, I have good days and bad days, but I know there isn’t much I can do at the moment. It’s probably the worst when I decide I want to write more of my novel and my brain just won’t do the thing.

Blogging helps a lot I find. Being able to put my thoughts onto a page while detangling the mess that is my brain is uplifting. Even being able to work out emotions like this is healthy. Makes me understand why people keep a journal.

Back on the topic of my novel – I’m almost done the rough draft I think. From there, onto an overall edit into a first real draft. As for the Ebook I was talking about – I’ll get to that one day. Hopefully my brain will cooperate. With work being quiet this morning, I should be able to pump out some words and make more progress.

But yeah, that’s what I’ve got for today. I’ve got a lengthy post coming soon, so keep an eye out for that. And in all reality, I should get back to work.

As always, thanks for reading!
— Deryn