Stories From Recently

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Life has been quiet lately. I’m mostly streaming, so I haven’t really been out. Well, that and I have no real reason to go out right now. But there are some, interesting interactions I’ve had that stuck with me. So, I’ll share some today. As well as some updates overall. With life being quiet, I’m thinking of changing up my schedules. 

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My amazing wife wanted to look at some shoes. Shoes are fun, and the mall is a fun trip to make, so off we went. The bus ride in was quiet. We were basically the only passengers for the first half of the ride. The mall is one of my least favourite places in the world. It’s draining and likes to remind me that I’m not as thin as I could be. Especially Garage (the clothing store). Back when I was in high school, there was a crop top I loved. I needed it in an XL (or extra large). Naturally, asked an employee who said to me, “we don’t sell clothes to fat people”. In high school I was maybe 90lbs, severely underweight and had a toxic relationship with food. So as one could imagine, I avoid that store now as best I can. 

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In Case You Couldn’t Tell

We stopped there. By now we’ve walked around a decent piece of the mall and all the models in windows and constant watching and worrying about everyone around me, I was out of my “customer service” voice. Now at the till, there’s only one open right now, which makes sense, and the person in front of us in line is a new employee trying to get her new discount. Everyone is new at some point, so like, have at ‘er, we’ve got time. Took a few minutes, and in that time, another employee said we could download their app for a discount. We decline, and it’s downhill from here. 

I’m A Dick

Our turn. This employee is adorable, I very much loved her hair. And she does her job “do you have our app,” I messed up. I declined this time, and aggressively. My tone of voice went straight “Karen”, and I didn’t even notice… When we walked out, my wife then decided to tell me, instead of WHEN WE WERE IN THERE SO I COULD APOLOGIZE! I felt terrible! This poor employee even asked for another staff member to come to the desk just in case. JUST IN CASE!!! I’m the worst!

Doctors and Older People

Sitting in a waiting room, an older gentleman sits across from me. Why not start a conversation? We talked for like, a half hour-ish. About everything too; doctors, moving, and living in a world like this. This lovely guy moved here from Hope, which is a small enough town everything is closed on weekends. It’s also in the bottom of a valley, so the weather is an issue and lack of doctors are just not making that a good home anymore. And he moved there from Surrey. Having a conversation with someone, and such a quality one too, that guy really made my day. I didn’t get his name though. 

And Now, Updates

Life is quiet and I’m not as busy as I used to be. I’m going to cut back posts for awhile. At least until the weather warms up and I can share hiking again. I’m going to try a post a week, but if I still don’t have much to talk about, I’ll be one a month. I’ll still be streaming, and I am on both Instagram and Twitter quite a lot. Make sure to follow me to see my new posts and updates! 

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And thank you for stopping by. You are amazing and I hope you have an amazing day!
— Deryn

Thoughts on Cannabis

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Quick thing before I go on, I know my dad reads my blog sometimes. So, dad, I suggest this post not be one you read. There’s nothing really bad about it, but I just don’t think you’ll like it. Cool? COOL! That, and you can look at the Midna pictures.

My baby girl!

With that awkward announcement over…

I was discussing “self medicating” with my roommate and my boyfriend over the past week. A mix of my thoughts on it and learning more about cannabis as a whole. I smoked a bit in high school but otherwise it’s never been too big of a thing in my life.
I struggle to focus as I’ve mentioned before, and I’ve been reading a lot on the topic of self medicating. It’s never been something I’m against, I just haven’t pursued anything of the sort before. 

There’s a cannabis store just up the road that I’ve been into a few times, mostly for gifts, but that’s probably where I’m going to go. That and it’s the closest store to me. Now, for clarification, I’m going to go there later today and really pick the brains of the employee. I know you can buy like, a little two pack thingy. Today, I’m going to try and write a whole bunch! Because focus sucks and I want to try. 

I’ve left Google Docs open for when I get back. Setting future me up for success. That, and how yesterday went, I’ve got to make food too. Did you see what was going on? Other than that, I don’t have a whole lot planned. Maybe some cleaning if I still have the energy. If this plan works out, I’ll have to consider doing it again. I’ll keep you updated nonetheless. 

Only reason for a cellphone. Pet pictures

But Yeah

That’s what I’ve got for today. Thanks for stopping by and stay safe out there! Oh, and a side note, the high for today is 4. It’s getting warm out!
— Deryn

Age of Empires But Redone

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I said I’d fix that post, so here I am. I left the old one up too so you can compare, but like, please don’t because it’s bad...

Onto The Post

Age of Empires is one of those games that’s been around forever. Launching in 1999 (the same year my brother was born) a lot of my younger days were spent playing this game. Up there with Zelda and Sims, AoE grew up with me. This is also one of those games my dad pirated and played too back in like, 2000, so it’s been around my home forever.

In January, a new expansion was released called “Lord’s of the West” and it looked awesome! So a couple friends and I bought it. It felt amazing getting back into the game and it being the way I remembered. Hopping back into a game like that, sometimes things like graphics can be a huge disappointment. Since the game has stayed popular, Microsoft has been updating it and keeping the visuals all pretty. I mean, it’s gorgeous!

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This edition is the Definitive Edition, not the HD. The High Definition version came out in 2015 I think? This one was 2019, so it’s *fancy*. You’d think since I’ve been playing this game forever that I’d be good at it, but I’m not.

I streamed this on my second stream ever. My goal was to beat a harder A.I. and declare my victory on screen. I succeeded! And in the stream I got raided. If you’re unfamiliar with Twitch and how that all works, a raid is another streamer sharing your stream with their audience when they finish theirs. I was SO excited to share my victory with all those people! And that stream drove me to continue playing games online like that.

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AoE is up there with Civilization V for me for strategy games I hate losing. I’m a sore loser already, but these two particular games, it just sucks. I put a lot of time into learning strategies and getting really good at Civ, so watch me try and do the same with AoE. This game is amazing! 

Anyway

Thanks for tuning in on my rewrite of this post. I love everything about this game and am so thrilled to share it! Professional games are my goal for this. It would be so awesome to play ranked AoE games! But yeah, thanks for everything, and have an awesome day!
— Deryn

Stopped Fighting It

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ADHD is a bitch. And my whole life I’ve been trying to fight it, trying to be a “normal” person. Lately I’ve been embracing it and just seeing what changes in my life. Hot damn did things change! *I say ADHD, I’m technically undiagnosed, but I tick almost every box and doctors around here suck. 

With That Out Of The Way

The motivation to do things has changed. If I only have the energy to finish half a task, I don’t burn out and am able to do half another task. Say dishes for example, my sink is split into two sides, if I do half the sink, I don’t want to die. (That’s a joke, not death here.) And from there might actually switch the laundry over, or even clean the litter boxes in my house. Oh, and my own health, damn! I’m taking care of myself! It’s so exciting! 

Even with hobbies, as of late they feel less like a chore I’ve abandoned, and more like an actual hobby. I only pick them up once a week, but that’s miles better than before! Hence why I’ve been writing more, and streaming more. Today will be day four I think. And I’m excited for gym days, until I go back I’ve been running with Midna. Running is the worst... But we have so much fun together. 

My sleep schedule has taken an interesting turn. A friend of mine is a “I’ll sleep when I’m tired,” kind of person. So I figured I’d try that out and it’s been going great! Every now and again I’ll take a nap, and then just continue about my day.
Found out it’s because of my cats. I was getting woken by them at like, 7:30 and I would feed them and be “awake”. After like four hours I’d be so tired I just went back to bed for a few hours. Fixed that, but sleeping all night is more my thing. 

Take Care Of Your Mental Health

I can’t say it enough, take care of yourself. Mental health matters so much, so don’t be too hard on yourself. Learning that early will change your life. Anyway, I’ll stop rambling for now. Have an awesome day and be safe out there!
— Deryn

I Thought December Was Cold

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This morning my weather app shared an amazing picture of -11° with a high of -8° and a low of -18°… It’s cold outside this week. Being that cold, there isn’t much outside I can do. I mean, I can dress for it, but there’s nothing to do. I’m lowkey wishing it were “December Cold“… Although, having a roommate who gets as cold as I do means my house isn’t as cold! So, here’s some plans I have for the week until it warms up! As well as what I’m doing today, because I’m running out of new things to do.

Today

My boyfriend bought me Valheim because it’s the new big survival game. So we played that last night for a bit, and I think it would be fun to stream! That or more Age of Empires. (Since I rushed myself on that post, I may redo it. Just so you’re aware.) Other than that, I don’t really have any plans. I also have to rebuild all of my picture storage on my computer. Apparently I have a few GB’s of saved TikToks on my phone that I need to sort through. But yeah, to catch my streams, shoot me a follow

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This Week

I want to find a way to share my deck lists for Magic the Gathering so bad! I’m sure there’s a way, but I haven’t tried or really looked into it at all. That would be super cool to share, especially since I play commander all the time! Otherwise, I really want to hit the 50 followers on Twitch to get my own “subscribe” button!

Oh, and I have this writing contest I want to enter, so I have to hurry up and get writing. On Vocal there’s a contest for $20,000 for a short story! After I enter, I want to publish that short here too. I only just discovered Vocal and I really like the challenges they have going on. Being able to keep writing and have the chance at winning a few bucks, that’s exciting! I may burn out, but I’m trying to keep myself taken care of... So yeah, going to try and devote time to that.

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Thanks for hanging out with me today, and I hope you have an awesome day! Be safe out there, and keep being awesome!
— Deryn